Nurse Betty BScN (cand): How long is this roller coaster ride???

Nurse Betty BScN (cand)

I am a 36 year old mother of 2. I entered university in 2005 for the BScN program but had no idea what a roller coaster ride it would be. My other interests are boating, cottaging, gardening, sitting, doing nothing, vegging and of course hard core belly button contemplating.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

How long is this roller coaster ride???

So I have spent every spare second talking with The Husband. Let me be the first to report that my 2nd year nursing diagnosis for this person is HE'S LOST HIS FLIPPING MIND!!! He is so confused and so full of self loathing that he is bordering in my opinion on a complete nervous breakdown. It is the nurse in me that isn't banging him over the head with a frying pan at this point in time. Up until last night it was all "I don't want to be married, I'm in love with Slutface, you and the kids are better off without me, I'm outa here" and then this morning while I'm at the hospital don't I get an urgent text message, I really need to talk to you. Basically the magnitude of his actions are hitting home, he was looking at pictures and had a whole day long pity party, when I got home I was expected to comfort him and help him cope with his decision to leave me and our kids. How is that logical? If I'm not mistaken, he fired my ass from comforter, go get Slutface to comfort you. I am not about to make him feel better because he is deserting his family. Ok, maybe I hugged him a little bit, but I am not going to say all the sweet nothings he wants. He's made his bed now he and Slutface can lie in it. All that said, if he came in the door and said that he was sorry and wanted to come back I would probably say ok. Help me with that sad fact please.

nursing talk: Had a great time at clinical today. Had my hand kissed by 3 different old geezers today. I am loving being a student nurse, and can't wait until I'm an actual nurse!


Anonymous Anonymous said...

If you'd take him back after he did this to you, then I'd have to wonder about YOUR self-esteem. He doesn't deserve hugs, he deserves a kick in the pants.

7:44 p.m.  
Blogger girl_in_greenwood said...

I don't necessarily agree with the above comment - marriage is a complicated thing and when you have kids involved it's even more complicated. Sounds like he's having second thoughts before he even finishes breaking off your marriage. Would he go to counseling?

8:09 p.m.  
Blogger hoosier student nurse said...

It is perfectly understandable that you want your family back, intact. You have children with this man. Obviously, there would be trust issues, but again, you have two children to raise, and if this family can be put back together again, then don't feel badly for wanting it. If he is sitting on the fence, then show him the door. The next thing he may do is tell you all of your shortcomings that caused him to run into the arms of slutface. That's bullshit and don't fall into it. You didn't do anything wrong and he did. That being said, if he shows up really sorry, you know the right thing to do. If he just wants you to tell him he's a good person even though he's breaking up your family, then tell him to go blow himself.

9:04 p.m.  

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